I am bound by my maladies–
fears, pain, insecurity, perception,
they keep me from seeking,
they keep me from being,
all that I could be–
my dreams, possibilities, potential,
left like limping question marks.
They shall claim my life no longer.
Freedom is not free,
but I am ready, willing, able
to stake claim and break these chains,
no longer shall fear shackle and bind me,
it will not control me.
I will chart my route, take the steps,
not without fear, but in the face of it.
This summer I had the privilege of visiting Michigan’s Upper Peninsula. For those who haven’t been there, it is a rugged sort of beauty, one in which outdoor lovers are in their element.
Now, I’ve spent lots of time there in the past, but it’s been awhile. Yet, I’ve been there, in my mind. The Upper Peninsula is almost like a character in my book, The Nature of Denial. It was part of what inspired the story.
I remember working through the entire book in my mind over hiking and camping trips. I snuggled in my sleeping bag, listened to the snores of others, and imagined how the rugged nature of the U.P. could help heal a person so badly in need of healing.
Anna (my main character) is not taken from my life or any other person’s life, but the scenery is very much what (for the most part) I’ve seen on my own. And it has, in many ways, healed me, again and again.
Visiting some of my old “haunts” was exhilarating for me, like meeting an old, dear friend. I couldn’t help but smile at references in my book that only I would get as I passed an old (not to be named) questionable motel, a dazzling waterfall, or heard the calming whispers of the forest leaves.
So, that was a part of my inspiration for the book. The other parts are too long to get into for this blog (maybe another one?) but they have to do with themes that I seem to revisit in my writing–struggle, hope, friendship, and love. The world is full of darkness, but there is light around every corner.
“Dreams. Don’t be afraid of them. Immerse yourself in yours. Remember, they exist today, in the here and now, in the what you do in this very moment. Dream big, break goals down small, and start checking them off the list. It’s empowering.”
This is part of an email I sent to some of the high school students that I work with. One of my jobs is to mentor students in an online program. Many of these teens need to hear that they are capable, that dreams are possible, and other positive affirmations. I’m sharing this because I think it’s important for all of us to dream, and dream big.
Whatever the goal–being a writer, promoting world peace, making a decent living doing something you love–it is okay, imperative even, that we are dreamers. Dreamers have created the beautiful parts of humanity and advancements that have altered how we live. So, go ahead, dream a little, and if you have kids, encourage their dreams too!